Many, many times in my life, I've tried to look deep into who I am. What makes me tick? What are my secrets? How can I really be authentic?
What I have continued to find out is I'm looking in the wrong direction.
Colossians 3:3 says "For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God." Think about that for a minute. Read it again and again. "Your life is hidden with Christ." So, in order for me to look deeply into myself, I must seek out Christ!
How does this help me be authentic? Be honest? As I seek Him, He reveals me. WOW! I have found this to be so true recently, and some of the people that are close to me are noticing...I can think about things for so long, but it's when they start manifesting in my life that really matters. When what I seek reveals more of the mystery of me, I become my authentic self; who I was created by God to be.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
So...what happens when your perspective of yourself changes?
For my entire life, I have had the words of my Mother going through my head. "Oh, I can't eat that, I'm too fat," or "I need to lose weight," or "I hate my body!"
YUCK!!
I'm sure there are millions of women like me out there who have had a hatred of self ingrained in them by a parent, or loved one. Even if they never said anything directly about you, you still take on the words as your own, as if there must be something wrong with you, too.
Recently, within the month, I went to a training on eating disorders...which I've never thought myself to have...yes, I must be queen of denial :) and found out some NEW information on body type/size.
The fact is, as long as we are moving (not sedentary), making healthy choices about what we feed our bodies (including paying attention to how certain foods make you feel, and avoiding the ones that have adverse effects on how you feel physically or emotionally), there is nothing to worry about what number you hit when stepping on a scale. Unless, of course, the size of yourself prevents you from enjoying a "normal" life. If you're healthy, whatever size you land at is ok!
Also, this one was HUGE for me, learn to see yourself through God's eyes! He never looks at you with disgust, or apathy, He only looks at you with the greatest, deepest, most honest love. There is nothing we can be or do that would make Him love us any less or any more...His love is not based on who we are, but on who He is! God is love, and He's completely sold-out-head-over-heels-heart-pounding-madly-deeply-sloppy-wet-kiss in LOVE with you!!
YUCK!!
I'm sure there are millions of women like me out there who have had a hatred of self ingrained in them by a parent, or loved one. Even if they never said anything directly about you, you still take on the words as your own, as if there must be something wrong with you, too.
Recently, within the month, I went to a training on eating disorders...which I've never thought myself to have...yes, I must be queen of denial :) and found out some NEW information on body type/size.
The fact is, as long as we are moving (not sedentary), making healthy choices about what we feed our bodies (including paying attention to how certain foods make you feel, and avoiding the ones that have adverse effects on how you feel physically or emotionally), there is nothing to worry about what number you hit when stepping on a scale. Unless, of course, the size of yourself prevents you from enjoying a "normal" life. If you're healthy, whatever size you land at is ok!
Also, this one was HUGE for me, learn to see yourself through God's eyes! He never looks at you with disgust, or apathy, He only looks at you with the greatest, deepest, most honest love. There is nothing we can be or do that would make Him love us any less or any more...His love is not based on who we are, but on who He is! God is love, and He's completely sold-out-head-over-heels-heart-pounding-madly-deeply-sloppy-wet-kiss in LOVE with you!!
Friday, February 11, 2011
so... I've been on Zoloft since December, and feeling pretty good. Energy level is mostly up, and I no longer feel helpless.
As far as the weight loss thing, down 6#, but not feeling ready to commit to a whole new gig. Sounds dumb, I know...I want it, but I don't want it bad enough to change. What's up with that?!?! What's the tipping point, anyway (pardon the pun)? What is the last straw? What will give me the motivation to make some changes?
As far as the weight loss thing, down 6#, but not feeling ready to commit to a whole new gig. Sounds dumb, I know...I want it, but I don't want it bad enough to change. What's up with that?!?! What's the tipping point, anyway (pardon the pun)? What is the last straw? What will give me the motivation to make some changes?
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