I've never been a journaler, but I envy those who can sit and write their thoughts out. I am thinking that they can get them organized better...?? I think I need to do that, so how do I get in the groove...perhaps using this blog?? I am going to try.
I had an amazing day, yesterday. Started a new journey of discovery in my life, with someone along side me to help "navigate" ~ ;) ~ the sometimes treacherous waters...you know who you are!
One challenge that has been placed before me is to write...ugh! Not my first thought, but I know the benefits. Who else out there finds it helpful to just write? Do you get to do it in a quiet space? I don't think I will be able to find that.
Seems that when I find a quiet room, my kids are magnetized to the beauty of it and they come and steal the quiet from me and I tend to explode. Can't I get a moment?? I try to sit and be peaceful and, within moments, I'm yelling at someone smaller than I, to leave me alone. What must they think? They just want to be with me...at least I think that's why. I'm pretty sure they love me and like being around me, but I don't understand why, when I am yelling at them to get away a lot of the time.
There it is...this thing called rage. Where does it come from? Why does it rear it's ugly head at the helpless around me; the ones I've been charged with protecting and teaching...THE ONES I'M SUPPOSED TO BE AN EXAMPLE OF CHRIST FOR?!?!
This will be my prayer today: Lord Jesus, the Almighty Creator, you knit me together...you know the pattern in which I was created. Please help me, mold me, break me and put me back right! Amen
Been there -- done that
ReplyDeleteIt's a 'time of life' thing and as long as you can talk to them after it's happened -- you will keep the lines of communication and love flowing.
Sometimes it feels as tho it will never be 'right' but in retrospect -- it's a blink of the eyes
Going through my own versions of it myself. Hang in there. And like Barb said, talk to them so they don't feel alienated. <3 you!
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