I see a boxing ring, with one boxer and a coach. The stadium is darkened, only the two individuals are in the ring. No announcer, no opponent.
For a minute I can't figure out who the boxer is, or even the coach, for that matter.
I hear a voice say, "I will fight for you."
Then I start to think that the boxer is me...but who is the coach? If someone is fighting for me, then , wouldn't I be the coach, telling the fighter who to fight?
I have to focus for a moment and I hear the voice again, "Let me fight for you!"
I realize the fighter and the coach both represent God, in two of His persons, The Father and Jesus.
"Show me your opponents," again, the same voice, but who would they be?
This is a vision I had two days ago, and after much more thought and prayer, I've come to know the ring is me. The opponents are still waging the fight in me, but I have not acknowledged they are there. I've been denying that I still have some pain I haven't' dealt with, or allowed myself to feel. Denial.
How can God heal those parts inside of me if I don't even acknowledge they exist? If I don't allow myself to feel the hurt way deep inside?
God wants me to let them come, so He can deal with them, give them a knock-out punch, if you will. I have to be very careful that I don't do this alone. My navigator (counselor) has given me permission to have a safe place for these things to be dealt with, for that I am thankful.
So, where is the Holy Spirit in all this? Well, there is an audience cheering....supporting....who can see who is waiting in the wings for the next fight....I think He's there.
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