Sunday, July 15, 2012

Warning: bad day...ALREADY!

Barely 9am and I've already had the worst day I've had in a long time. When it rains, it pours, I guess.


I feel like I'll never get to where I can play and have fun, and I get so mad when all the kids want to do is play and have fun!  Why am I left to get all the yucky task stuff around the house done by myself?  I want to enjoy things! I can't get ahead, and I'm getting resentful. Furious-fly-off-the-handle...if there even is  a handle to be on :/


Date night? Too much to do. Vacation? Dreadful, cause there's so much to do. Sit and read? But there will be a disaster that I have to get up and clean. Seems as if it will never end and I don't dare take a break, cause it will just be worse when the break is over.


So, here I sit, writing this all down, cause it's supposed to do me some good...all I want to do is hide, today. I'm afraid if I go out "there" (sitting in my room, right now) that something worse will happen.  I can't just shut down, because they want to go do things...they want to have fun...they want to see the sun today.  


Someday someone will be like me and notice that I need help, too...maybe...I can't just keep helping other people...it's breaking me.

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